i hate this week so far

it sucks sucks sucks
yesterday was by far the worst day of the new year.
every single class sucked. except for math.
in french, madame jones yelled at me. ME! WTFBBQ.
then in APUSH mr uribe told me he was "very disappointed that i wasn't taking notes. because he gives me the packets for a reason."
in chem. we got a student teacher. i miss mr olsbergs humor.
and in english i had like 10000 opportunities for participation points..but i didnt take them.

ugh. AND IT SUCKED.
okay.
today wasnt so bad.
but still. i'm over school.

i made fudge.
hopefully i cooked it long enough so it hardens.
last time it didnt.
uuugghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i want to just sleep.
and not. wake up. ever.
im so effing bored.

cinnamon buns.

i baked them. they were pretty good. hahaha! and they were a lot of fun to make.
well. last night i went to taiko! i had unagi with maguro sashimi. SOO YUMMY. OH MY GOSH SOO GOOD. taiko is so inexpensive...and the servings are huge! and the sashimi melts in your mouth...yum! life is good. weeelll. today i'm going to go shopping...for a bit. urban. i wish ruth was here so we can go together. T^T i miss ruth already.
i want a new post secret book.
last night, i looked through my book again: a lifetime of secrets. its always amazing how i can read it like...100 times...and never see some secrets. last night i saw one that really summed up how i was feeling. i couldn't stop crying. i thought about it all the time. i love postsecret. it really is therapy.



i just realized.
the only final i didn't cheat on, i got 100%.

omg life is hilarious.

FINALS ARE OVER!

yaaay!
i got...

HOLY CRAP EARTHQUAKE.

anyways.
i got 100% on math. yaay. i was very happy. (:

well. this weekend should be relaxing. i'm not really going to do anything.
besides mother's birthday.
i'm super bored. hahaha.

i've been entertaining myself with online shopping.

do you know about the bird?

sure, everybody knows that the bird is the word!

Today was an amazing day. (: Dim sum in the morning with TBC and PKC! Then Puri Kura for like 3 hours...went to Guppy's for some food. I saw BRYCE KUBO!!! (: (: (: HAHAHA. And also, Alex Kim and Ruth's mom at Guppy's. Guppies? Whatever. Then we went to Ava's house for TABOO!!! It was super fun.
It was my first time going to Sticki Picki..it was pretty cute. A lot of the machines are fun. But it will take awhile to get use to them.
<---this one had a higher angle. pretty cool. (:
I baked some more muffins.
BTW I AM TOTALLY STUFFED.
I finished a lot of work..I need to do the French though. Weeeeelll. FINALS WEEK.
GG EERRRONE.


call me this week. and we'll catch up.
im nervous.

100 manificent muffins & scones

i baked some apple cinnamon muffins today.
thanks for the book ruthie. (:

i should shower. and sleep.



im really tired.
ive been online shopping all day.

i want to go spend monies that i dont have.

and i want to move to LA and just--

HOLD UP. I JUST SAW A SIGN ON THE TV ABOUT GAY RIGHTS:
"Jesus has two daddies, why can't I?"

WHAT THE HELL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. THAT'S NOT THE SAME THING, BUT PROPS FOR ORIGINALITY. HAHAAHHA OMG THAT MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD.

ANYWAYS.
i just want to live in LA and be rich. i need to marry a rich guy.
although ms la frowns upon that.
whatever.
life shall be good for katie edwards one day.

i bought a new jacket. its really cute.

my dream last night

i was going to anime expo, but LA was caught on fire!
it was really crazy, we got off of the freeway and the whole city was burning to the ground.
it was my cosplay group. we ended up staying at this one hotel.
we just watched the news about how it was burning, but because it was so bad we couldn't go on the freeway to get home.
i remember texting a person, asking if they were okay.
its strange how i think about you in my dreams...i still sorta worry if you are okay or not.
anyways, we ended up renting a car and i drove home.
it was weird, nicole was going to drive, but she sucked so much that i had to.
hahahahahahahahaha, despite the fact that we had alan, mark, and josh with us.

i really want to go do something.
i am outrageously bored here.
oh deaar. okay. well. goodnight. and. yeah.
tmrw:
finish math
finish french
make flashcards for pres test
study 1 DBQ


someone do english so i can copy. D:

I WAS SO MAD THAT ALL THE WORK I DO IS WORTH 5 POINTS.
GAH MS LA YOU SUCK SOMETIMES.

chocolate mochi crunch

i went to the optomitrist today. i need glasses!
well, sorta, not really.
i have 20/20 vision, but i have a little bit of estigmatism in my left eye...he said in order for me to "focus" clearly i should get glasses for when i study.
he actually said that its probably because i spend majority of my time reading things and studying. hahahahahahahahaha. hes a funny guy, Dr. Vu.
i got these SUPER cute ones. they are like cat eyes. its so cute. i was going to get ray bans..but i changed my mind to get this cutie ones. i get them next saturday.
the only reason why i said i would get them is because i thought it would be cool to have glasses. i don't really need them...but i think it will be cool to wear them. plus, they will help me focus.

today i am going to study for APUSH, chem, and finish french.
would anyone like to tell me what la fram's english hw was? cause i did not write it down.

i have an idea. how about everybody in uribe posts a response to one DBQ. then i dont have to work on all 6. >.>

i really want salsa, but i'm not strong enough to open the jar, so i can't have it.
HOW SAD.

im excited for monday.
dim sum, puri kura, board games, and fun. (:

okay. back to studying. (:

you know what.
i've learned in high school that being yourself doesn't work.
every time i try to be myself, everyone just hates me for it.
i know i act like it's all for fun, but when people make fun of me for liking the jonas brothers, hsm, koalas, or other stupid things, it really hurts.
im so tired of people making fun of me.
it sounds so childish...but i've basically gone my whole life like this.
i dont hate you for what you like.
why do you have to hate me for what i like?

how am i supposed to be myself when all i do is get ridiculed for it?
people always make fun of me. i hate it.

seriously. i was anorexic. and i was depressed. because of my insecurities. why do people still torment me?
its your faults that i tried to kill myself.
why cant everyone just leave me alone?
just let me live without making fun of me.

how sad is it that we live in such a world, that even when high school students are supposed to be "mature" they still treat others like shit.


i hope everyone has fun picking on me and treating me like shit.
im so tired of being made fun of.
i hate going to school because of people like you guys.

the worse part is, im just being myself. i cant even express myself without being afraid of people hating me for it.

happiness

if happiness had a physical form,
it would resemble a glass.
even though it's transparent, its still there.
sometimes you need to look at it from a different angle to see it sparkle, but it's still there.
it only needs a little bit of light to shine its beautiful rays on everyone around it.

head hurts.

my head hurts! i took a huge nap! and im thirsty!
but im doing okay.
i just am sooo tired.
timsie makes things better though.

i love "meet the robinsons"
its such a cutie movie!!!!
THE SONG AT THE END IS SO CUTE TOO.
it makes me smile.


i just want to skip college years and high school...and just get married and get a job.

Although,

I sorta poured my heart out, I don't regret it or anything, but, I'm not happy or sad. I'm just in the middle. It's okay.