i wish i wasn't so selfless.
and i wish i wasn't so selfish.

it's my birthday.
and i expect a lot.
but at the same time, i don't want anything at all.
i don't want people to buy me presents.
i want them to just want to make me happy.
and i'm easily pleased.

simple things make me happy,
but now that i think about it,
when people go out of their way to make me happy i feel guilty.
but when people don't try, i feel unloved.

why can't i find a balance between the two?

i always ask for no presents, because i want my family to make improvements within the house.
why spend money on clothes i don't really NEED.
spend it on something more meaningful that will benefit the whole family.
but when i ask for something, you make me feel guilty.
i just wanted to be selfless. but now i seem too selfish.