moving all of my hateful energy out of my body!
"haaaate...haaaate...haaaate!!!"
hahaha. ruth. (:
yeah. hehe. it worked.
i took deep breathes.
oh gosh. the book club thing today was INTERESTING...hahha..
i got so scared.
edison week assembly practice made me tired. -____-
all i did was hold on blocks. for long periods of time.
blaaaaah.
today sucked.
then it turned out good.
it sucked..a lot.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
its easy to say
but its harder to feel.
i decided to go to cinergy.
i wanna see my girls again. ):
i miss them a lot.
david yi sent me a video. and a message.
i cried the first time i saw it.
i miss david a lot. i remember when he left, i was so scared.
and i really miss talking to him everyday.
he will always have a special place in my heart, as my best guy friend.
i havent really thought a lot lately. life goes by so fast, i lose track of time. i need to concentrate of my past, right now. i feel like i havent been reflecting. and i dont want to make the same mistakes twice. whats important to me. what do i need to do. what can i do.
i feel like ive changed this year.
i told myself i wouldnt, yet i allowed myself to become a whole different person.
ive become less lovable. and more distant.
ive been focusing on the wrong things..
but i also believe that ive matured since last year..
i dont want to live off of fear anymore.
i decided to focus my life on love.
its an amazing subject. (:
i still miss you, by the way.
i think about how you are gone all the time.
you know, when you left, i thought i would be okay.
and i thought that i would keep the promise.
is the reason why i cant feel you anymore because you truly moved on?
i wont allow myself to think such things.
its been three long years.
if only you were around to see how much ive changed.
i know, life gets in the way...
but you are very special to me. and i cherish our love and friendship more than anything.
if only i could just pick up the phone and call you.
to hear your voice again...it would be better than anything..cause i miss the sound of your voice.
but i cant do it.
you'll always be in my heart. always.
ive been so frustrated lately, i let my anger out in little bursts.
calm down. calm down.
i need to just..relax...and..love.
the more and more i focus on love,
i feel like satan is aware.
he is attempting to bring me down.
the hate he has forced in my heart..
i need to be stronger.
i need to chase him away.
he is not the right way for me.
its easy to say, but its harder to feel.
i decided to go to cinergy.
i wanna see my girls again. ):
i miss them a lot.
david yi sent me a video. and a message.
i cried the first time i saw it.
i miss david a lot. i remember when he left, i was so scared.
and i really miss talking to him everyday.
he will always have a special place in my heart, as my best guy friend.
i havent really thought a lot lately. life goes by so fast, i lose track of time. i need to concentrate of my past, right now. i feel like i havent been reflecting. and i dont want to make the same mistakes twice. whats important to me. what do i need to do. what can i do.
i feel like ive changed this year.
i told myself i wouldnt, yet i allowed myself to become a whole different person.
ive become less lovable. and more distant.
ive been focusing on the wrong things..
but i also believe that ive matured since last year..
i dont want to live off of fear anymore.
i decided to focus my life on love.
its an amazing subject. (:
i still miss you, by the way.
i think about how you are gone all the time.
you know, when you left, i thought i would be okay.
and i thought that i would keep the promise.
is the reason why i cant feel you anymore because you truly moved on?
i wont allow myself to think such things.
its been three long years.
if only you were around to see how much ive changed.
i know, life gets in the way...
but you are very special to me. and i cherish our love and friendship more than anything.
if only i could just pick up the phone and call you.
to hear your voice again...it would be better than anything..cause i miss the sound of your voice.
but i cant do it.
you'll always be in my heart. always.
ive been so frustrated lately, i let my anger out in little bursts.
calm down. calm down.
i need to just..relax...and..love.
the more and more i focus on love,
i feel like satan is aware.
he is attempting to bring me down.
the hate he has forced in my heart..
i need to be stronger.
i need to chase him away.
he is not the right way for me.
its easy to say, but its harder to feel.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
starbucks.
my mom calls me, "do you want anything from starbucks?"
after about 5 min. on contemplating..i say,
"yeah..green tea frap..extra whip, please!!"
she responds, "what size?"
"oh," i say, "the smallest size..."
"are you sure? its not too much more for the bigger one..."
"i guess thats fine then. get me the bigger one, thanks."
15 min later.
my mother walks through the door...
"sorry...i got a little carried away..."
i look over at the drink. all thats left is the whipped cream!
"i thought i could just take a little sip..but i ended up drinking it all..im sorry! ill go get you a new one!" she pleads.
"its fine..ill...ill just eat the whipped cream.. -___-"
so, i am currently sitting here drinking whipped cream.
yum-e.
today, mr olsberg said this during class when we were doing these orbital equation things.
"come on! give it some viagra so it will go up!"
my eyes were like O.O
i looked around the class to see if anyone else heard that.
half the class was like "...what..oh my..."
i look at anthony, he says "yeah...i heard it too, katie..."
I WAS LIKE WTF. hahahahah.
after about 5 min. on contemplating..i say,
"yeah..green tea frap..extra whip, please!!"
she responds, "what size?"
"oh," i say, "the smallest size..."
"are you sure? its not too much more for the bigger one..."
"i guess thats fine then. get me the bigger one, thanks."
15 min later.
my mother walks through the door...
"sorry...i got a little carried away..."
i look over at the drink. all thats left is the whipped cream!
"i thought i could just take a little sip..but i ended up drinking it all..im sorry! ill go get you a new one!" she pleads.
"its fine..ill...ill just eat the whipped cream.. -___-"
so, i am currently sitting here drinking whipped cream.
yum-e.
today, mr olsberg said this during class when we were doing these orbital equation things.
"come on! give it some viagra so it will go up!"
my eyes were like O.O
i looked around the class to see if anyone else heard that.
half the class was like "...what..oh my..."
i look at anthony, he says "yeah...i heard it too, katie..."
I WAS LIKE WTF. hahahahah.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
i got a lot of things
i have to do,
all these distractions
our future coming soon...
we're being pulled a hundred different directions,
but whatever happens, i know i got you
youre on my mind, in my heart
it doesnt matter where we are
we'll be alright;
even if we're miles apart
all i wanna do it be with you, be with you
theres nothing we cant do
just wanna be with you, only you
ahh matt prokop. (: heheh!
I JUST WANNA BE WITH....YOOOUUUU.
haha hes a cutie.
okay. so today.
DBQ!!WAROF1812.
then, math hw.
then science lab.
OKAY GO.
oh yeah. mail letters to aimee in JAPAN!
i finally figured out how to write the address.
and im excited.
all these distractions
our future coming soon...
we're being pulled a hundred different directions,
but whatever happens, i know i got you
youre on my mind, in my heart
it doesnt matter where we are
we'll be alright;
even if we're miles apart
all i wanna do it be with you, be with you
theres nothing we cant do
just wanna be with you, only you
ahh matt prokop. (: heheh!
I JUST WANNA BE WITH....YOOOUUUU.
haha hes a cutie.
okay. so today.
DBQ!!WAROF1812.
then, math hw.
then science lab.
OKAY GO.
oh yeah. mail letters to aimee in JAPAN!
i finally figured out how to write the address.
and im excited.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
SENIORYEAR.HSM3.
the night of nights.
yeah its the night of nights, better look just right!
its going to be a night! to remember!
its going to be a night! lasts forever!
getting ready get-in-get-in ready!
it was amazing. like AMAZING.
ill be singing the lyrics everywhere i go.
hsm3>hsm1>hsm2
for sure.
i dont want to spoil it for you...
but zac efron freaking goes crazy. and he owns it up.
and sings. and dances.
and he does sezzzy moves. (:
baby v is a slut.
during her duet with zac you can see her panties.
then again, we've seen more in the past. .___.;
they sang "were all in this together", soft chorus style. and it made me cry.
and theres a new guy. i like him!
his real name is...Matt Prokop!
and he is 18. (:
he is rumored to be the star of hsm4. which i would like. he has spunk! its so funny.
they introduced the "new" characters.
this guy is the new "troy" while theres some black kid who is the new "chad"
and the new "sharpay" is like..this british girl? its interesting.
i wish our school was as spirited as east high. ):
seriously.
MYGOALINLIFE.
NOT REALLY. haha
Friday, October 24, 2008
feeling like its getting hot
come on baby, what you got?
hsm3hsm3hopefullyyyy.
weeellwhateverrr.
i need to catch up on sleep.
im way to tired.
im chuck bass...
OH YEAH.
womanizer womanizer womanizer you you you you ah you you you.
je suis tres fatigue.
bof! je te veux! bwahaha. c'est drole. j'ai besoin sommeil!
hsm3hsm3hopefullyyyy.
weeellwhateverrr.
i need to catch up on sleep.
im way to tired.
im chuck bass...
OH YEAH.
womanizer womanizer womanizer you you you you ah you you you.
je suis tres fatigue.
bof! je te veux! bwahaha. c'est drole. j'ai besoin sommeil!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
why!?!
am i eating mac n cheese with a fork?
bad idea katie.
the cheese slips out! and you can hardly grab the noodles.
speaking of things that rhyme with noodles,
i saw these two cute poodles at newport today.
bad idea katie.
the cheese slips out! and you can hardly grab the noodles.
speaking of things that rhyme with noodles,
i saw these two cute poodles at newport today.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
whyyy!
is my webcam not opening up!
AT FIRST, it just didnt open..
now it says another program is using it! not true! fail webcam, fail!
i went shopping and i bought a pair of shorts and two cardigans..yessss.
i feel very accomplished.
i dislike schoool.
why must i go back every monday?!
i feel like watching rent or moulin rouge.
both very inspiring movies.
"i find some of what you teach suspect, because im used to relying on intelect, but i try to open up to what i dont know...because reason says i should have died three years ago"
"theres only us, theres only this, forget regret. or life is yours to miss. no other road, no other way; no day but today."
andrew just brought up the notebook.
i changed my mind. notebook>rent right now.
but i can go for moulin rouge, ANYTIME!
AT FIRST, it just didnt open..
now it says another program is using it! not true! fail webcam, fail!
i went shopping and i bought a pair of shorts and two cardigans..yessss.
i feel very accomplished.
i dislike schoool.
why must i go back every monday?!
i feel like watching rent or moulin rouge.
both very inspiring movies.
"i find some of what you teach suspect, because im used to relying on intelect, but i try to open up to what i dont know...because reason says i should have died three years ago"
"theres only us, theres only this, forget regret. or life is yours to miss. no other road, no other way; no day but today."
andrew just brought up the notebook.
i changed my mind. notebook>rent right now.
but i can go for moulin rouge, ANYTIME!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
fortune cookie
When I opened my fortune cookie today, it posed me a question.
If you never change your mind,
why have one?
After a few moments of pondering, I posed it a question.
If you always change your mind,
why have one?
Confidant I had won the argument, I popped it into my mouth.
stevie chew wrote this in his latest note.
i love stevie. and i love this.
i've been posting other peoples writings on MY blog.
it just shows how lazy i've gotten over the past days.
it reminds me of something else i read,
I used to think the human brain was the most fascinating part of the human body.
Then I thought, "Look what's telling me that."
i cant really tell you who wrote this one.
cause i dont really know who did.
its in buzzy enniss' book.
ive been listening to joshua radin a lot.
his voice is super calming..i love it.
"i woke, dreaming you left me, for someone new, then you cried, drying those brown eyes, crying youre sorry, but sorry wont do.
this is the way i need to wake, i wake to you.
you never left me, all i had dreamt had been untrue.
open my eyes, i see sky."
"last night, we had a great fight. i fell asleep in a horrible state.
then dreamt, you loved my best friend!
my heart would NOT mend, seemed it was fate.
but, this is the way i need to wake i wake to you.
you never left me, all i had dreamt had been untrue.
open my eyes, i see sky."
just say you'll stay forever mine,
as we fall asleep tonight.
---------
Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
8 years would be 24.
so no, not right now.
but when i reach 20,
yes i would.
When was the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
this morning.
What were you doing at 3am this morning?
sleeping.
What did you do today?
prop party.
freaked freaked freaked.timxuesavesme.
basic.
What is the last card game you played?
i have no idea.
What movie do you really want to see right now?
nick&norah's ultimate playlist.
and HSM3.
i'm buying tickets this weekend, tell me if you want to go.
friday@7:00.
i would go to midnight showing...
but i have school, ya know.
Who is all in the same room as you?
ava. grandma. nicole. mari.
Do you still talk to the person you fell fastest/hardest for?
yes. everyday. and i love it. (:
or at least, i believe i fell the hardest for.
maybe not the fastest.
Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
pcjc camp 08.!
community.
Do you want to be in a relationship?
yes. but, that doesnt mean i dont like where things are going.
Do you want kids?
yes. 5 kids. (: (: (:
i have their names picked out.
thinking about it gets me all excited.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
yes. his name is RAFFI.
he is easy to talk to. and he never tells secrets. and he doesnt discriminate!
Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
yes.
Last time you saw your parents?
like an hour ago.
Who was the last person to give you a ride somewhere other than a parent?
hmm.
im sure it was ikea with tim.
how sad. that was so long ago.
Are you truly happy?
nope. i can be happier.
What were your first thoughts this morning?
"what time is the prop party? did i miss it? shoot, what time is it now? wheres my phone!? i need to text ruth!!!"
Are you a jealous person?
im trying to not be. but i am.
What family member do you resemble the most?
my mom. and i guess nicole. but. whatever.
[ NOW ]
Current mood:
completly satisfied.
relaxed.
you make me feel this way.
long, deep sigh.
the type of sigh you make when you see someone amazing.
Current music:
nicole and ava are watching FMA in the background.
Current taste:
mouthwash.
"i use mouthwash. sometimes i floss. i've got a family, and i drink cups of tea!"
Current hair:
tied up and wet.
Current annoyance:
myself. im too weak. and i and really dumb. and i need to stop hating people.
oh. and the scarlet letter.
Current smell:
mmm..smells good..smells like...ROY MUSTANG. THE FLAME ALCHEMIST.
smells like sex. ;)
i just heard him talk in the background and felt compelled to write something about him, just because hes so amazing. and no i dont say "sex" all the time.
n'y a sais pas mon petite amie.
Current thing I should be doing:
ec lab.
sleeping.
Current windows open:
blogger. fandango. aim. aim.
Current favorite band:
the rocket summer.
hell yes.
Current cd in stereo:
no stereo. ):
Current crush:
i dont have a CRUSH on anyone.
Smoke?
noo sir.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?:
yes. everyday i wake up and think about the same thing, mainly cause i have the same dream every night.
it differs a little bit, but its usually the same.
i would very much like to read your dream dictionary, timshoe.
Read the newspaper?:
yahoo headlines ftw caroline. (:
Have any gay or lesbian friends?
yeah. interesting.
Believe it’s possible to remain faithful forever?:
yes. sometimes you slip up, but deep down you stay true.
Consider love a mistake?:
never. love is the foundation of our lives. through love be can become better people. "love thy neighbor" leaves no room for hate. and if we dont hate, we can get a step closer to a better world.
i know it sounds so hypocritical coming from ME, because i am a closet hater. but im trying my best to stop the playa hating. (:
Believe in astrology?:
no. its interesting though.
Believe in magic?:
i believe in God's miracles.
Believe in god?:
yes. ^^^
Have any pets:
yes, mari.
THEDOG.
Go to or plan to go to college?
yes. hopefully. if i dont screw up.
Have any piercings?:
no. i got some this summer. but, they kept on infecting my ears and such. so i just let them close. it was very sad. i miss them. im considering repiercing them.
Have any tattoos?:
no! but i will get one. i assure you.
Have a best friend?:
yes. her name is ruth kim.
and she is coo'.
Friday, October 17, 2008
kitkat.
i am covering my body with tattoos for you
because eventually the world will run out of ink
and when that happens
i will drain the ink from my skin and write the last poem that will ever be written
it will be about you
i will put my hands in a vice and twist past broken
until every drop of ink drips from my hands and then...
i will write your name
i will twist my wrist and stretch my forearm from my shoulder
ink funneling from my elbows
and i will write a sentence about holding you
---
from the genius mind of buzzy enniss.
i love reading his work.
its very inspiring...
one of my favorite poems he writes is called "If I was Jesus"
he writes;
"If I was Jesus
I would walk into every place of worship--Jewish, Mormon, Muslim, Jehovah's Witness, Catholic, and Christian--just to see who had really learned the most from me
If I was Jesus
I would make everyone that wears a cross around their neck for fashion feel for 30 seconds what I felt on that cross for 6 1/2 hours"
i stole a kitkat bar from the fridge.
it tastes good. i think sometimes when we stumble upon things, they seem better.
if i were to go out and BUY a kitkat bar..it would taste boring...
but if i were to FIND it all nice and cold,
well, it would taste much richer.
i failed the scarlet letter test.
but i think i did well on my apush test.
asb birthday party tonight.
i cleaned.
because eventually the world will run out of ink
and when that happens
i will drain the ink from my skin and write the last poem that will ever be written
it will be about you
i will put my hands in a vice and twist past broken
until every drop of ink drips from my hands and then...
i will write your name
i will twist my wrist and stretch my forearm from my shoulder
ink funneling from my elbows
and i will write a sentence about holding you
---
from the genius mind of buzzy enniss.
i love reading his work.
its very inspiring...
one of my favorite poems he writes is called "If I was Jesus"
he writes;
"If I was Jesus
I would walk into every place of worship--Jewish, Mormon, Muslim, Jehovah's Witness, Catholic, and Christian--just to see who had really learned the most from me
If I was Jesus
I would make everyone that wears a cross around their neck for fashion feel for 30 seconds what I felt on that cross for 6 1/2 hours"
i stole a kitkat bar from the fridge.
it tastes good. i think sometimes when we stumble upon things, they seem better.
if i were to go out and BUY a kitkat bar..it would taste boring...
but if i were to FIND it all nice and cold,
well, it would taste much richer.
i failed the scarlet letter test.
but i think i did well on my apush test.
asb birthday party tonight.
i cleaned.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
im better
if you were wondering.
actually, i take that back.
im pissed for other reasons.
im on my period. if you couldnt tell.
im just so frustrated.
im not doing this over again. i refuse to get hurt again. i refuse.
love should never be a secret. if you keep something as complicated as love stored up inside, it could make you sick.
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
actually, i take that back.
im pissed for other reasons.
im on my period. if you couldnt tell.
im just so frustrated.
im not doing this over again. i refuse to get hurt again. i refuse.
all the pain i thought i knew
all the thoughts lead back to you
i cant handle this confusion, im unable..
love should never be a secret. if you keep something as complicated as love stored up inside, it could make you sick.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
IMSOFUCKINGPISSED.
ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS I JUST TYPED AN ANGRY BLOG AND MY INTERNET CRASHED, SO IM EVEN MORE PISSED OFF BECAUSE I HAVE TO RETYPE EVERYTHING.
UGHHHHHHHH IM SOOOOOOOO MAAAAAAAD.
seriously, WHY DOES EVERYONE BITCH AT SPIRIT TO HOST A BIRTHDAY PARTY IS NO ONE IS GOING TO EVEN SHOW UP?!
I KNOW EVERYONE IS BUSY, BUT IF YOU ARENT WILLING TO GO TO AN EVENT THEN DONT ASK US TO PLAN ONE.
i am opening up my house to you guys so you can have a freaking birthday party, and NOBODY even wants to go.
DO YOU KNOW THAT I HAFTA CLEAN MY HOUSE FOR THIS?!
I DONT WANT TO CLEAN MY HOUSE.
I DONT I DONT I DONT.
NOT ONLY THAT, I HAVE TO LOCK UP MARI AND KICK MY SISTER AND PARENTS OUT OF THE HOUSE.
i would be very happy to do these things if people were to ACTUALLY SHOW UP.
instead of doing other things.
i understand that everyone is busy and cant make it to everything.
but im busy too. i have two nights a week for ME.
i havent been to afmc in FOREVER.
and i havent seen my good friends in FOREVER.
clayton calls me every week to hang out and im so busy i cant.
I HAVE A LIFE TOO.
spirit is seriously a shitty job.
nobody cares. and i have no idea why i want to do it again.
everyone ALWAYS disagrees with us on EVERYTHING.
and everyone always complains that we dont do our job.
when its SOOO FUCKING STUPID.
DONT FUCKING ASK US TO LEAD CHEERS IF YOU ARENT GOING TO CHEER WITH US.
I LOOK LIKE A FOOOL. D:
im not even kidding.
im so sick of people bitching at me for not getting the asb room done.
like DO WE NEED PHOTO FRAMES?!
I SWEAR I LOOKED AROUND IKEA SO MUCH THIS SUMMER FOR STUFF.
AND I LOOKED ALL AROUND THE INTERENET FOR EDISON WEEK IDEAS.
AND ALL YOU DO IT FUCKING BITCH ABOUT HOW YOU DONT LIKE MY IDEAS.
WELL I DONT FUCKING CARE GET OUT OF SPIRIT IF YOU DONT LIKE OUR IDEAS.
YOU DONT DO SHIT SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN.
ALL YOU DO IS WHINE AND BITCH.
AND YOU FUCKING ARE TRYING TO TELL ME NOT TO DATE TIM BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT IT TO BE AWKWARD?!
WHATTHEFUCK,IMSOFUCKINGSICKOFYOU.
im like super super super frustrated and i needed to vent.
ill be fine tomorrow.
i should be happy that i dont have to do a lot of work on spirit.
but i dont know why i try.
im going to go look for edison week gifts now.
excuse my language.
UGHHHHHHHH IM SOOOOOOOO MAAAAAAAD.
seriously, WHY DOES EVERYONE BITCH AT SPIRIT TO HOST A BIRTHDAY PARTY IS NO ONE IS GOING TO EVEN SHOW UP?!
I KNOW EVERYONE IS BUSY, BUT IF YOU ARENT WILLING TO GO TO AN EVENT THEN DONT ASK US TO PLAN ONE.
i am opening up my house to you guys so you can have a freaking birthday party, and NOBODY even wants to go.
DO YOU KNOW THAT I HAFTA CLEAN MY HOUSE FOR THIS?!
I DONT WANT TO CLEAN MY HOUSE.
I DONT I DONT I DONT.
NOT ONLY THAT, I HAVE TO LOCK UP MARI AND KICK MY SISTER AND PARENTS OUT OF THE HOUSE.
i would be very happy to do these things if people were to ACTUALLY SHOW UP.
instead of doing other things.
i understand that everyone is busy and cant make it to everything.
but im busy too. i have two nights a week for ME.
i havent been to afmc in FOREVER.
and i havent seen my good friends in FOREVER.
clayton calls me every week to hang out and im so busy i cant.
I HAVE A LIFE TOO.
spirit is seriously a shitty job.
nobody cares. and i have no idea why i want to do it again.
everyone ALWAYS disagrees with us on EVERYTHING.
and everyone always complains that we dont do our job.
when its SOOO FUCKING STUPID.
DONT FUCKING ASK US TO LEAD CHEERS IF YOU ARENT GOING TO CHEER WITH US.
I LOOK LIKE A FOOOL. D:
im not even kidding.
im so sick of people bitching at me for not getting the asb room done.
like DO WE NEED PHOTO FRAMES?!
I SWEAR I LOOKED AROUND IKEA SO MUCH THIS SUMMER FOR STUFF.
AND I LOOKED ALL AROUND THE INTERENET FOR EDISON WEEK IDEAS.
AND ALL YOU DO IT FUCKING BITCH ABOUT HOW YOU DONT LIKE MY IDEAS.
WELL I DONT FUCKING CARE GET OUT OF SPIRIT IF YOU DONT LIKE OUR IDEAS.
YOU DONT DO SHIT SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN.
ALL YOU DO IS WHINE AND BITCH.
AND YOU FUCKING ARE TRYING TO TELL ME NOT TO DATE TIM BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT IT TO BE AWKWARD?!
WHATTHEFUCK,IMSOFUCKINGSICKOFYOU.
im like super super super frustrated and i needed to vent.
ill be fine tomorrow.
i should be happy that i dont have to do a lot of work on spirit.
but i dont know why i try.
im going to go look for edison week gifts now.
excuse my language.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
people i like slightly more than some.
today was a very long day.
i woke up and went to the ALA cosplay picnic.
it was interesting.
we did a nice photoshoot.
it was cold, but we met some cool people.
then i went home and left right away for the AHA picnic...(ALA, AHA..heh)
it was mucho fun.
then krn club social.
joe kims bed is SUPER NICE.
the softest thing ever. im not even kidding, it was amazing.
i say that in a clean way. because i was sleeping in it alone. hahaha.
nicole,ava,and amber are playing KH2.
they've been playing for like EVER.
im supersupersuper tired.
i have church tomorrow morning.
then i think ill do hw.
i should study for APUSH.
i will.
i should start early so i dont fall asleep with my books again...blah.
today was super long.
but i did a lot.
and i accomplished a lot.
and i laughed. A LOT.
i saw mitchell today.
that was cool.
i woke up and went to the ALA cosplay picnic.
it was interesting.
we did a nice photoshoot.
it was cold, but we met some cool people.
then i went home and left right away for the AHA picnic...(ALA, AHA..heh)
it was mucho fun.
then krn club social.
joe kims bed is SUPER NICE.
the softest thing ever. im not even kidding, it was amazing.
i say that in a clean way. because i was sleeping in it alone. hahaha.
nicole,ava,and amber are playing KH2.
they've been playing for like EVER.
im supersupersuper tired.
i have church tomorrow morning.
then i think ill do hw.
i should study for APUSH.
i will.
i should start early so i dont fall asleep with my books again...blah.
today was super long.
but i did a lot.
and i accomplished a lot.
and i laughed. A LOT.
i saw mitchell today.
that was cool.
the merchant of venice
If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they would be mad?
no. not at all.
How do you know the last person you were in a car with?
<333timshooooe<33333
errrm. i KNOW timshoe.
Where were you at 10:17 pm last night ?
SKYPE.
Besides this, what are you doing right now?
greenteaicecream.
thnx ruthie. (:
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
noooo.
Who will be the first person you call tomorrow?
ruth. im guessing.
Are any of your exs still in your life that you wish weren't?
yes
Did you kiss or makeout with anyone today ?
no
Do you get mad when your current bf/gf talks about an ex?
i have no current bf. (;
Are you a bitch?
ha.
Do you have your eye on anyone?
yeeeeeees. (:
Are you happy with your life at the moment?
i need to pay attention during school.
What is something you disliked about your day?
hhhmmm.
nothing. today was amazing<33
What is something you liked about your day?
(: <3333333 my night.
What are you listening to?
nicole drying her hair. heh.
Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
yes.
Did you see the person you like today?
yeeeeessiir. (:
Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
not really.
Do you think the drinking age should be lowered to 18?
yes. pffft.
Last sporting event you watched on TV?
i watch tennis when i get bored. ):
Have you kissed anyone whose name started with a T?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
how ironic, no.
Are you sleepy?
yes.
Are you okay with abortion?
no. pro-life.
What TV show should never stop getting produced?
scrubs.
FRIENDS. bring it back.
What shirt are you wearing?
tanktop. yellow.
What shoes did you wear today?
prom.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
nope. dead. tired.
Anything you need to do?
yesno.
----
who was creative enough to think that a less than sign plus a three could make something so useful as the <3 heart.
genius. D: i use it every other word<3
merchant of venice was AIIITE.
i dont have cosplay tomorrow.
i threw it away cause it broke. hmmm.
i went to karaoke with dorothy,ruth,josie,kevin,&andrew.
timshoe<3 came at the end.
i have a lot of videos. and some pictures.
ill fb it later.
then merchant of venice.
i stole huys spot. sorry huy,
and yeah. it was a good play.
i enjoyed my time spent there. (:
im really tired.
i dont have that much hw.
i did it at school. yay me.
study apush study apush study apush.
i told myself i would try hard.
i slacked off.
now i must try hard again.
i cant wait for school because i get to see your face.
no. not at all.
How do you know the last person you were in a car with?
<333timshooooe<33333
errrm. i KNOW timshoe.
Where were you at 10:17 pm last night ?
SKYPE.
Besides this, what are you doing right now?
greenteaicecream.
thnx ruthie. (:
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
noooo.
Who will be the first person you call tomorrow?
ruth. im guessing.
Are any of your exs still in your life that you wish weren't?
yes
Did you kiss or makeout with anyone today ?
no
Do you get mad when your current bf/gf talks about an ex?
i have no current bf. (;
Are you a bitch?
ha.
Do you have your eye on anyone?
yeeeeeees. (:
Are you happy with your life at the moment?
i need to pay attention during school.
What is something you disliked about your day?
hhhmmm.
nothing. today was amazing<33
What is something you liked about your day?
(: <3333333 my night.
What are you listening to?
nicole drying her hair. heh.
Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
yes.
Did you see the person you like today?
yeeeeessiir. (:
Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
not really.
Do you think the drinking age should be lowered to 18?
yes. pffft.
Last sporting event you watched on TV?
i watch tennis when i get bored. ):
Have you kissed anyone whose name started with a T?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
how ironic, no.
Are you sleepy?
yes.
Are you okay with abortion?
no. pro-life.
What TV show should never stop getting produced?
scrubs.
FRIENDS. bring it back.
What shirt are you wearing?
tanktop. yellow.
What shoes did you wear today?
prom.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
nope. dead. tired.
Anything you need to do?
yesno.
----
who was creative enough to think that a less than sign plus a three could make something so useful as the <3 heart.
genius. D: i use it every other word<3
merchant of venice was AIIITE.
i dont have cosplay tomorrow.
i threw it away cause it broke. hmmm.
i went to karaoke with dorothy,ruth,josie,kevin,&andrew.
timshoe<3 came at the end.
i have a lot of videos. and some pictures.
ill fb it later.
then merchant of venice.
i stole huys spot. sorry huy,
and yeah. it was a good play.
i enjoyed my time spent there. (:
im really tired.
i dont have that much hw.
i did it at school. yay me.
study apush study apush study apush.
i told myself i would try hard.
i slacked off.
now i must try hard again.
i cant wait for school because i get to see your face.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
we dont have to worry
i just ate some noodles.
now my tummy is very very full.
like too full!! it hurts.
i drew a picture of a dinosaur for anthony hua.
cause he asked me too. and hes my chem partner.
i failed the test today if you were wondering.
la da da da da.
i had to write this..sort of.."cool" summer experience i had for my core staff group.
its not much of a testimony at all. just something i felt like i should share with the group. i wrote it in an e-mail. with crazy spelling errors because i was lazy.
\\
i was walking to school one random day, it was the afternoon.
as i walked i saw a sign hanging off the freeway, (i have to cross a bridge to get to school that passes over the freeway...), it read
"be the change you want to see in the world."
at that moment i thought, "what am i doing? how is my existance affecting the world i live in?" i began to make a mental list of the things ive accomplished in my life. it was VERY short. i couldnt think of one thing that actually mattered. after that moment, i spent the majority of this summer reflecting on my life. i was so frustrated that i wasnt making a difference and i wasnt helping anyone, that i began to disgust myself. then, i began to focus on the word "change". we all change throughout our lives, hopefully for the better. this reminded me of a girl i once knew in middle school. i remember asking her if she would ever smoke, just because i knew her sister is a smoker. she replied, "of course not, katie! im way better than that." i took her word for it. that same girl goes to highschool with me. we are no longer friends. and of course, she is a major druggie. its a terrible loss. but, it made me think. maybe this quote didnt necessarily mean impacting the world. maybe it meant to be a changed into a new kind of person, for the better. every decision we make affects the type of person we become. its those choices that make us change into the people we are. if we make good decisions, we will become better people. right? right. or at least, i believe so. i know if i chose to take a certain path, my life would not be the same as it is today. so "be the change you want to see in the world" really means, "be a good person, and others will learn from your choices" well. i guess thats a ROUGH version of it. haha. after that moment, i felt as if God had opened my eyes to the real meaning of that quote. it felt so amazing to finally be satisfied and learn what i needed to do. i hope to become the change in the world that i want to see.
//
backseat goodbye is a good band.
i really enjoy his upbeat, cute acoustic style.
"you are more like an oceans wave;
you get closer towards the end of the day.
love is oh so lovely;
but it comes with a cost"
now my tummy is very very full.
like too full!! it hurts.
i drew a picture of a dinosaur for anthony hua.
cause he asked me too. and hes my chem partner.
i failed the test today if you were wondering.
la da da da da.
i had to write this..sort of.."cool" summer experience i had for my core staff group.
its not much of a testimony at all. just something i felt like i should share with the group. i wrote it in an e-mail. with crazy spelling errors because i was lazy.
\\
i was walking to school one random day, it was the afternoon.
as i walked i saw a sign hanging off the freeway, (i have to cross a bridge to get to school that passes over the freeway...), it read
"be the change you want to see in the world."
at that moment i thought, "what am i doing? how is my existance affecting the world i live in?" i began to make a mental list of the things ive accomplished in my life. it was VERY short. i couldnt think of one thing that actually mattered. after that moment, i spent the majority of this summer reflecting on my life. i was so frustrated that i wasnt making a difference and i wasnt helping anyone, that i began to disgust myself. then, i began to focus on the word "change". we all change throughout our lives, hopefully for the better. this reminded me of a girl i once knew in middle school. i remember asking her if she would ever smoke, just because i knew her sister is a smoker. she replied, "of course not, katie! im way better than that." i took her word for it. that same girl goes to highschool with me. we are no longer friends. and of course, she is a major druggie. its a terrible loss. but, it made me think. maybe this quote didnt necessarily mean impacting the world. maybe it meant to be a changed into a new kind of person, for the better. every decision we make affects the type of person we become. its those choices that make us change into the people we are. if we make good decisions, we will become better people. right? right. or at least, i believe so. i know if i chose to take a certain path, my life would not be the same as it is today. so "be the change you want to see in the world" really means, "be a good person, and others will learn from your choices" well. i guess thats a ROUGH version of it. haha. after that moment, i felt as if God had opened my eyes to the real meaning of that quote. it felt so amazing to finally be satisfied and learn what i needed to do. i hope to become the change in the world that i want to see.
//
backseat goodbye is a good band.
i really enjoy his upbeat, cute acoustic style.
"you are more like an oceans wave;
you get closer towards the end of the day.
love is oh so lovely;
but it comes with a cost"
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
la da da da.
i like saturdays and the rocket summer.i like you, you like me. there's something wrong with this picture. let's turn it upside down so we can see our insecurities.i like pretty pictures and shirts that are too big for my child-like figure that you're so in love with. i like simple songs with pretty words. i tried poetry, but it's just no good. the pages get lost, besides i'd much rather sing to you. i love living life with you by my side. you're a smart kid with a beautiful smile. and oh god those technicolor eyes. i like saturdays and the rocket summer. night skies and that lovely stare. i like you, you like me. so lets lock all the doors. there's nothing outside we need to see. 'cause we've got love. yeah we've got a tv we can watch "Scrubs" all we want. and we don't have to worry about tomorrow. because we know it's gonna come. whether we want it to or not
i failed my driving test today!
BOF! je ne sais pas.
i have a lot of hw.
i dont feel like doing it. blah boring.
i have to go to college night tonight.
and yeah. i have lots of makeup hw to complete.
and a science test tomorrow i am not prepared for!
epicfail.
Monday, October 6, 2008
pumpkin pancakes.
"i cant get rid of my pride. but one day, when we grow old, and i have nothing left to be proud of, ill return to you. ill come back, and we can live together. in that old warehouse."
i remember saying that this was one of my favorite quotes.
its from the first NaNa movie.
i hate how this quote fell through.
ill explain;
nana was in love with a boy named ren. but, they separated when ren switched bands. nana was so prideful, she couldnt go back to him. they saw eachother after their long break, and slept together. nana said this to justify why they couldnt be together. ren grew up in an old warehouse because he was abandoned. so yeah. ren died. just recently. in the manga. and now this can never happen. a quote that once touched my heart, has such a greater meaning now.
some people would just judge me for taking this so seriously.
but you have no idea what kind of impact this story has had in my life.
in the movie, hachiko's boyfriend cheated on her. nana began to yell at her boyfriend, and the girl he was cheating with. she screamed at hachi,
"do something! this is your fight! win him back!"
hachi stood there crying. she was speechless. finally, she managed to say,
"no..i dont want to anymore."
i loved how nana stood up for hachi when she couldnt.
i loved how dorothy stood up for me when i couldnt.
shes my strength sometimes. most of the time.
i cant always say what i feel.
but she does it for me. and im so thankful to have a nana in my life.
i sometimes get too emotional. i guess. thats just how i am.
i say the wrong things. at the wrong time.
im socially awkward in large groups.
but 1 on 1. i can easily talk.
i guess because i can focus on one person.
haha mamma mia was such a dumb movie.
yet the soundtrack is so upbeat i love it.
i have tsl passages.
hmm. i should have started earlier.
but i was lazy.
all nighter. ftw. (:
<333333333333333333
lalalala. pumpkin pancakes.
im going to go eat them at mimi's.
so good.
i remember saying that this was one of my favorite quotes.
its from the first NaNa movie.
i hate how this quote fell through.
ill explain;
nana was in love with a boy named ren. but, they separated when ren switched bands. nana was so prideful, she couldnt go back to him. they saw eachother after their long break, and slept together. nana said this to justify why they couldnt be together. ren grew up in an old warehouse because he was abandoned. so yeah. ren died. just recently. in the manga. and now this can never happen. a quote that once touched my heart, has such a greater meaning now.
some people would just judge me for taking this so seriously.
but you have no idea what kind of impact this story has had in my life.
in the movie, hachiko's boyfriend cheated on her. nana began to yell at her boyfriend, and the girl he was cheating with. she screamed at hachi,
"do something! this is your fight! win him back!"
hachi stood there crying. she was speechless. finally, she managed to say,
"no..i dont want to anymore."
i loved how nana stood up for hachi when she couldnt.
i loved how dorothy stood up for me when i couldnt.
shes my strength sometimes. most of the time.
i cant always say what i feel.
but she does it for me. and im so thankful to have a nana in my life.
i sometimes get too emotional. i guess. thats just how i am.
i say the wrong things. at the wrong time.
im socially awkward in large groups.
but 1 on 1. i can easily talk.
i guess because i can focus on one person.
haha mamma mia was such a dumb movie.
yet the soundtrack is so upbeat i love it.
i have tsl passages.
hmm. i should have started earlier.
but i was lazy.
all nighter. ftw. (:
<333333333333333333
lalalala. pumpkin pancakes.
im going to go eat them at mimi's.
so good.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
im inlike with you.
(:
hc was beaucoup fun.
the dance floor was a bit small. but whatever.
i still got down. ;)
i uploaded my pics onto fb. check it.
thanks roof. <33 for your maison.
et merci jeff pour la nourriture.
post secret was good today.
better than last week.
i need to change my myspace picture.
for years i have envied your grace and your charm
btwbtwbtwbtwbtw;
timshoemakesmesmile<333333
ktedwards (10:19:44 PM): after shays rebellion.
ktedwards (10:19:50 PM): they planned to "revise" the articles.
jeffkhvu(10:19:57 PM): yes the constititional convention
ktedwards (10:20:00 PM): sisi.
jeffkhvu(10:20:01 PM): by john adams?
ktedwards (10:20:02 PM): rhode island
ktedwards (10:20:04 PM): didnt show up.
jeffkhvu (10:20:13 PM): they are punk ass bitches and never go to anything
hc was beaucoup fun.
the dance floor was a bit small. but whatever.
i still got down. ;)
i uploaded my pics onto fb. check it.
thanks roof. <33 for your maison.
et merci jeff pour la nourriture.
post secret was good today.
better than last week.
i need to change my myspace picture.
for years i have envied your grace and your charm
btwbtwbtwbtwbtw;
timshoemakesmesmile<333333
ktedwards (10:19:44 PM): after shays rebellion.
ktedwards (10:19:50 PM): they planned to "revise" the articles.
jeffkhvu(10:19:57 PM): yes the constititional convention
ktedwards (10:20:00 PM): sisi.
jeffkhvu(10:20:01 PM): by john adams?
ktedwards (10:20:02 PM): rhode island
ktedwards (10:20:04 PM): didnt show up.
jeffkhvu (10:20:13 PM): they are punk ass bitches and never go to anything
Friday, October 3, 2008
i act 17 years old. i beg to disagree.
[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[ ] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
TOTAL SO FAR: 3
[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 6
[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study when you have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 10
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR:14
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You use the internet every day
[x ] You have been outside of the united states 2 or more times
[x] You make your own bed
TOTAL: 17
NOW RE POST AS: I act __ years old
---------------------
woke up from my nap.
i miss friends a bunch actually.
i had a very relaxing day.
but im super tired and heacachey.
if thats a word.
but, yeah, i missed some people today. ):
im excited for hc.
i tried to do handstands for you
but everytime i feel for you,
im permently black and blue
[] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[ ] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
TOTAL SO FAR: 3
[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 6
[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study when you have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 10
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR:14
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You use the internet every day
[x ] You have been outside of the united states 2 or more times
[x] You make your own bed
TOTAL: 17
NOW RE POST AS: I act __ years old
---------------------
woke up from my nap.
i miss friends a bunch actually.
i had a very relaxing day.
but im super tired and heacachey.
if thats a word.
but, yeah, i missed some people today. ):
im excited for hc.
i tried to do handstands for you
but everytime i feel for you,
im permently black and blue
imsupersick.
this week was very exhausting.
but veeery worth it.
the assembly was AMAZING. i was so proud.
christine,denise&josh worked so hard!
so did julie&lema.
but christine really was amazing.
jojo&matt were freaking bomb. (:
they made the assembly. no joooke.
well. i skipped school today because i didnt want to over-do-it.
i guess. its homecoming tomorrow, im super excited, but then i didnt want to be sick and miserable.
so noo school for katie<3
but i have a lot of work to catch up.
3 math assignments
10-16 tsl passages
study for apush
science wrksheet
science prelab
french workbook
ahh. i cant sleep either.
and im a bit hungry.
and super bored at home.
but i would have been so miserable at school.
and i would end up falling asleep on the couches in the asb room.
hc week was amazing. (:
so muuch fuun!
and last night was fun also.
i love senate! (:
the assembly was much fun.
and the dancing was fun...haha
but veeery worth it.
the assembly was AMAZING. i was so proud.
christine,denise&josh worked so hard!
so did julie&lema.
but christine really was amazing.
jojo&matt were freaking bomb. (:
they made the assembly. no joooke.
well. i skipped school today because i didnt want to over-do-it.
i guess. its homecoming tomorrow, im super excited, but then i didnt want to be sick and miserable.
so noo school for katie<3
but i have a lot of work to catch up.
3 math assignments
10-16 tsl passages
study for apush
science wrksheet
science prelab
french workbook
ahh. i cant sleep either.
and im a bit hungry.
and super bored at home.
but i would have been so miserable at school.
and i would end up falling asleep on the couches in the asb room.
hc week was amazing. (:
so muuch fuun!
and last night was fun also.
i love senate! (:
the assembly was much fun.
and the dancing was fun...haha
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