it's getting late

and your dinner is getting cold.



God is good. all the time.
praise Him.

my little piggy

he sits next to my computer.
he's really cute.
he's white and has a star on his head.
i don't know how to spell his name,
but my sister named him bunjow or something.


why is it that half of my friends make me want to throw up cause i'm so sick of being around them?

hectic

i should have taken my pills 2 hours ago.
then i wouldnt be awake.
if i take it now, i will not be able to wake up tomorrow morning.

this has been the craziest weekend of my life.
after all of this, to think that i have to go through it at least one more time.
my heart was settled, but now its changed.

God really does provide miracles.

it's in His will.

im going to school tomorrow for the first time in a long time.


i can't think past tomorrow.

stay with me

no matter what it takes just say you'll say
just say you'll stay


working on my college apps.
i think that inspiration comes from hardcore sitting still for hours at end.

i guess with all this craziness i don't have time to think about things like that.
its a bit trivial.

but i guess its just cause i'm used to waiting like this.
only a couple of months.

and why would i dream about something like that?
that shouldn't have even crossed my mind.
because it's pointless and will only cause me pain.

it's no surprise i can't forget you
no matter what i do
i will always carry you in my heart

bad romance

i really am not a fan of lady gaga.
but i admit to dancing to a myriad of her songs.
it's pretty fun.
and i quote,

"Won't people get upset that they don't have their Lady GaGa for a dance?" -Sara La Framboise
"Yes. Me." -KT Edwards
------<3
Despite all that's happened this year, I'm very thankful for everyone and everything.
If I could go back, I wouldn't change a thing.

I'm ready to get out.
I'm sick of studying and I want something more meaningful.
I enjoy nature, but I love the city lights.

There's gotta be more out there than just high school.
And I do high school well.
It suits me.

Still. There's more out there, and I'm determined to find it.

i asked God who i'm supposed to be

the stars smiled down on me
God answered in silent reverie
i said a prayer and fell asleep

chemical unbalances, frivolous cells

it eats away even as i cease

winter calls from the tips on my fingers

down to the heels of my feet

pain struck me down as i held on to my sanity

the pallor is welcomed into my visage

my alarm clock never seems to give enough

take, take, take

that's all you do

Other side effects of celiac disease can cause symptoms that can be mistaken for depression. For example, a deficiency in folic acid due to malabsorption can cause fatigue, apathy and forgetfulness. Iron deficiency, with or without anemia, can produce feelings of tiredness and easy fatigue.

how do i get better once i've had the best

i actually sorta miss you a lot.
but saturday i get to see you.
and i'm super excited.
it's been too long. and it's not fair that you are so far away ):

i know you think im SUPER lame and everything, but i honestly don't care!
you are just too freakin good my dear (:


i hardly have time to blog anymore, but i felt like skipping some hw.

the weirdest things remind me of you, and i love it.