AX 2009

So AX was filled with a lot of curry.
But I still managed to have fun. (:
Our room got messed up, but we managed to make it work. Thanks Dorothy for the airbeds.
Our Shaman King cosplay was amazing. We didn't have time to do a photoshoot, but I really wish we did. Masquerade also went really well! We got Best Group Presentation runner up! So yaaay! (: That's equivalent to 2nd Place.

I'm really going to miss PK! And everyone else.
I'm also excited for the bonfire. (:
And when Priscilla and I go to the Rilakkura store and buy everything.
Rilakkura is the cutest effing thing in the world.
I bought so much stuff.
<3 I miss AX...but AX10 will be amaaazing. (:

i didnt ask for this

i didnt ask for you to come back
i wanted you to leave me alone
but its really not your fault
its all mine.


why is it so hot in here?
i can feel the rush throughout my body.

i would break you like a bad habit, but old habits die hard my friend.



ps. if you guys were wondering, the bird is now gone.
i think a cat got it.

my love

i'm proud of me.
but more importantly, i'm thankful for God.


today, i noticed a tiny bird struggling in the dirt.
he was in my front yard, right next to the window.
his chirps were strained and constant, as if he was crying out for help.
he couldn't fly.
he couldn't walk.
he could barely move.
i saw other birds pass him by, but none stopped to help.
he was going to die.
i couldn't do anything about it either.
his legs were very long, and his wings too short. it seemed that he was born with a defect and was left to die.
he didn't have a chance. not even for one minute. he was born ready to die.
i went outside to look around for a nest that he could have fallen from.
there was nothing. no where to go. he had no place to be.
i watched him all day. i felt helpless. i felt angry at the other birds for not helping.
my grandma finally said, "why would God hurt something that didn't do anything wrong."
at first, i couldn't think of a response.
but, as i watched the other birds peck at him and then fly off, i realized something.
why aren't we helping.

all the time, i see people blame God for their misfortunes. when something tragic happens, they blame God and say that this person did nothing wrong. but the truth is, we don't do much right. we are far more vicious than any action God could take. when we see homeless people, how many times do we stop and help? when we see someone struggling, how many times do we stop and help? as our nation is being corrupted and spoiled, what actions are we taking to stop it? all those children who are suffering, for whatever reason, what are you doing to help them?
to those people who say that God doesn't exist, or if he does he is only cruel, you are worse.
if you could only see the good that God creates, perhaps you would be able to understand that in reality these opportunities come up so you can help. we are all selfish, but those who blame God for their problems are the worst. it makes me so upset.

God has been nothing but good for longer than you will ever understand.
He is the beginning and the end.

without him, i wouldn't be anyone.
i'm thankful that i have someone in my life to teach me.

what is the difference

between alive and awake.
i was awake today, but i can hardly recall any conversations i had.
i can remember where i went and who i went with,
but i don't know what happened.

i was alive today.
i felt a bit more useful.
i felt a bit more triumphant.

perhaps this is God's way of telling me that good things can happen.

i dont know why, but i always have the mind set that if something good happens, something bad will happen in exchange.
i got the grades i wanted.
but i can assume that i wont get the SAT scores i want.
win-lose.
i can't win all the battles i fight.
but i will try my hardest.

why?

you haven't written in your blog for awhile now.

i tried to schedule a license test today...but westminister is full.
costa mesa has one on july 20th.
but thats about it.
sucks.

i have a lot of cosplay to work on.

monday: 8-12 work

tuesday: 8-12 work
transformers?

wednesday: 8-12 work
1:30-whenever hang out!

thursday: 8-12 work
12-2 poster party

friday: 8-12 work
picnic with tianshi

timeless

there's no tomorrow for some of us
so cherish the days we have
they will last forever
in this simple life style
suburban living, deep friction between the pavement and the road
take the road on the left, it suits your personality
they need to last forever
because life is too short to be spent
wondering what could have been
or what it was supposed to be
so listen to your heart and never let anyone tell you otherwise

it's all over babe.

i can't believe that this year is finally over.
it went by way too fast.
and i really mean that.

i guess it's because i was so busy.
time flies when you're busy.

overall...i enjoyed junior year.
well. it had its ups and downs.
there was a lot of crappy moments...but a lot of amazing ones...

i'm exhausted right now.
but. it's okay! life is good. God is good. i am good.

this is my last summer.
or it feels like it.
it doesn't even feel like summer.
it feels like i'm going back to school soon.
i guess i just don't want to realize that you'll be gone soon.
i'm going to miss you, tim.

i can't wait to do amazing things...
cosplay.asb.tim(oh ho!).paartyy.

i'm ready to sleep now.
forever and forever.

i gained 4 pounds tonight at shabu shabu.

matt is officially apart of our cosplay group!


i love life.
and i love tim.
and yeah. (: